misses

a short post before i go to bed, on the things i miss

i miss rg band days, playing with my seniors, making prsents, pre-concert high and post-concert blues. footdrills, band camps, band chalets and all band related events.. band bbq! all the awards and dunking of pple. lao shi and his dog lucky. the tears the disagreements the waves... and the bonds that resulted.

i miss guo bao zhi guo xiao po. zhu ming jie nd his adorable sister. dont know if i'll ever see them again in this lifetime/ have any contact with them. or even if i do, whether it'll be awkward and weird. and so i miss those simple interactions back then, short, but which will stay with me always.. but there'll be that part of me that'll keep wondering how they are and how they'll grow up and turn out to be..

ok right now, i guess these are the 2 major categories of things that i miss most.
i do miss rj band days too, but somehow rg band days are more poignant and more nostalgic. maybe cos they lasted 4 years. and they were longer ago, so when i start rmmring things... it comes back in torrents. how we've grown, up and away from what used to hold us together, and how things have changed..

cadenza i-donno-how-many-already was great fun. worth playin just for the sake of... everything. stress free cos just 1 not-hard piece. maybe the best part was seeing denise and getting to talk to her and crap and all.. really, she prob is the direct batch junior that i'm closest to. and which in a way therefore i like the most, aka my favourite. i dont know where those 3 quiet pple of ours went.. qiao qi constance and charis. they prob evaporated or something. oh but nothing beats our direct seniors. now, THEY are the ones who have truly disappeard. gone. vamoose. to think of how much we loved/idolized them before, and what a huge part of our lives they played/ the tremendous influence they had over us. ok, i think i may just be speaking for myself.

i think, growing older means missing more things as the years go by.. i also miss my goldfish whom i havent interacted properly with in ages and someone else who brushed me off hahahaa so nvm.

guo bao zhi guo xiao po zhu ming jie xiao feng....

hais.

want to cry already.