Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth to Eternity

i like those lyrics a lot.. indeed, break my heart for what breaks Yours, Father..

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it's been a great 2.5 weeks since i returned! no doubt it was a terrific experience in America, making new friends, shopping, spending time with my boyboy, but it's been a very good 2.5 weeks too. meeting up with people, watching my hk serials, going for RWinds.. i've had lots and lots of fun. so much so that, boohoo, i'm kinda a bit sad that school's starting! my 4th sem in NP, no doubt it's gonna be even busier.. and after this sem, in Year 3, haha, that'll be woorse.. cos we'll be macham office job liddat i think, almost everyday go to a child care centre for the whole day... hurhur...

wells. i think it'll be a much needed experience for me actually, to be really and truly exposed to the workings of a child care centre, as compared to the current system of 3/4 hours of attachment per week. when i think of friends like jojo who works in her church's kindergarten during the hols, i feel somewhat 惭愧 cos.. that was something i had in mind too but never got round to doing and i think i really lack A LOT of experience around young children.. i mean, some of my classmates also work at child cares during the term lor. so in that sense, considering how this is my prospective career.. i feel like i'm not doing enough to build up on it. heh.

what to do.. who ask me to be so playful? (and lazy. lol)

there are too many things that i would welcome for my birthday. i cant believe how much wants i have! it's... astounding. too materialistic liaos. must change! i should just... not go out. everytime i go out and happen to see something and if i feel it's a good buy... ta-da! the hole in my wallet grows bigger. :X so either i find me another well-paying tuition job (got lobang please tell me! i wanna teach english for sec sch! and chinese till sec 2 is ok too :D), or.. i must PULL IN THE REINS ON MY WALLET. bolded to remind myself. which i have done so many times but still..... .... .... (the dots speak for me)

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i realise i have many interests. i like many things. i have a number of dreams/fantasies.

i would love to be a dancer - a versatile dancer who can do graceful stuff like rhythmic gymnastics, balet, modern dance, jazz... and also hip hop! a combination of grace and energy... lovely.

i would love to be a jockey! to be a super pro rider.. to feel the wind rushing pass me as i gallop over fields and mountains on the back of my beloved horse.. (u can thus infer that the pet of my dreams would be a horse! a pony ideally, so i can watch and take care of it as it grows.. ((: see, what an expensive dream. lol) so first of all i need riding lessons! which are, unfortunately, terribly ex.

i would love to be a singer! self-explanatory... i like to sing. i dont know which i like more though, if i have to compare this interest with the above 2.. hmm actually the dancer dream can co-exist with this, so mnay singers sing and dance these days.

i would love to act. hahahhaaa. dont ask me why. i dont even know if i can act lor. i just think it'd be fun to try.. to put yourself into another role.. be it drama serials or.. broadway musicals! which is in fact a combi of singing, dancing and acting! coooool- ness. hahahha

i would love to open my own child care center. this is the most realistic yet not really of the list. well well.. we'll see how the big guy above leads ya ;)

just an unrelated note - the golden concubine remarked to me that my boyboy looks so happy in all the pics i posted here. lol. of cos la! for one thing, that's cos I"M around (such unabashedly thick-skinned i am, haha) secondly, makes sense i'll only post the nicer pics up right... :D