frustration

is it a self-fulfilling prophecy, a vicious cycle i perpetuate?

dun like this. reeeally dun like this. it can't continue this way... but i dunno if i can get out of it.

lots of grace.

2 video clips that cheer me up a lil. cant figure out how to make it appear here so will just leave the link...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwlhxcRnEDo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lH_5NSNYtoM&feature=related

i like them both so much. wish i could do them with you.

i need to learn to stick to limits. TIME LIMITS.

'I'

i miss my baobao a lot suddenly.

i've been eating far too much. just ask my new friends. i dun wanna imagine how much weight i'll gain after this semester.. bye bye to those ballroom dancing lessons with baobao... ~sobz~

i'm learning a lot in school. it's very fulfilling. very interesting experiences. things are generally good.

i have a lot to be thankful for. like my family's support and my darling baobao. :) and technology that allows me to still be in touch with my china 'kids'.

i just wish i have more time to chill/ stone/ slack/ relax/ SLEEP.

i want more time. time to wait on Him, time to exercise, time to keep in contact with people, time to do the many many things i want.

i want to go back to Yunnan. i miss them. i miss En Yi. (totally cute baby!!)

i need strength.

i need to think of a whole lot of things.

overwhelmed

1/3 into this crazily intensive 6 weeks journey, an overwhelming sense of stress suddenly/finally sinks in... today i just feel like crying and bawling like a baby. is it the hormones? ~shrugs~

help Lord.. i really need more strength and grace. dun see how else i'm gonna surevive this whole period. this entire month of july...