slip sleep slip

it's very bad, the way i morph from baby to normal to baby again. really a baby.. i really have quite lousy ______. can't believe how i let myself wallow in ______... so unhealthy. it's not helping me that's for sure. i dont want a third time!

anyway, it's amazing that its 3.51 am and i'm still in the kind of non sleepy state that i seem to be in for quite a few days already.. is that what stress does to you? i slept ard 330 am last night too and woke up 3.5 hours later... went to school my classmate said didnt look like i slept so late/little.. cos i'm just in that constant state... i never knew i could last on so little sleep yet be not tired physically it appears... there's something wrong with my brain man.

on another note, some people have been sweet and conforting. thank you :)

there's nothing, yet there's something, maybe everything wrong

dont ask me, i dont know what to say... ask God to tell you then you can tell me and.. we'll see how from there. haha.

last night :
i'm supposed to be working on a project now, but obviously i'm not. heh.

now:
it doesnt matter that i didnt work on it my friends also dont appear to have and there's a 5 hour break from 11 to 4 for us to work... lol.

a reality of life is that sometimes one can't go to the toilet as much as one desires, meaning cant drink as much water as i otherwise would. alone in the library now, so each time i go to the toilet i'll have to pack everything and bring with me... or at least, my laptop. how inconvenient is that can... heheh.

guess what's this... answer revealed at the end. ;)

late night trip to the airport to see 2 lovely ladies off.

answer: Pris' boots which she finally gets to wear cos of winter time in yunnan... so if u want to be able to 名正言顺-ly wear boots, go yunnan in dec. LOL

some time ago i suddenly thought of those short periods in cameron highlands and in fraser's hill... and i wish i could experience that kind of feeling again. there's just something which i can't quite place into words that i long for about those times.. maybe a bit of everything, the place, the people, the setting... it was church camps when i was attending st andrew's cathedral. in dec 2002 and 2003 i believe. so long ago... and that's when i got to know my 妹.. whom at this point of time i have somewhat drifted apart from. i guess we were never close-close, yet we did have some sort of regular contact. used to read her blog pretty often. i rmmr how in jc days i would check her blog each time i went to the comp lab. lol. just read her blog just now and somehow felt a tinge of sadness..

i dont make as much effort as i used to before. maybe partly after these 2 years too, i tend to keep more to myself.
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went to visit wailing at bukit panjang on impulse after project meeting this morn! had lunch with her at food court - ban mian and mee hoon kuey! waiwai laughed at me when she saw my tears from eating red chilli... ahahha. weiwei n xh used to laugh at me for tearing too when eating laksa in the rgs canteen :P it was quite funny how amused waiwai was. but the chilli was super hot!! i wiped away quite a bit of tears hurhur.

FINALLY attended my first dance lesson for this month. (my month starts from 11th of each month to the 11th of the next month) i'm wasting my $$$ for not going for dance! it's partly cos my right knee was hurting some time back.. quite pain when going up and down stairs.. now it's ok thank God! :)

isnt my polar bear cute? lol. i painted it ok! it's erm, chinese painting. the past week was e-learning week, so no lessons except for 1 at 8 am on monday morn :X but on wed, thurs n fri, there was RED camp for sec sch students to come get a feel of ngee ann... the sec students were taught to paint that courtesy of the Chinese Studies department of the School of Humanities. i painted it on wed while helping out. thought of my yunnan kids again as i painted.. wonder how they are. miss 3 boys and 2 little girls in particular. all of whom i have no way of direct contact. if only they all had hps!!!

it's sunday afternoon, watching The Unbeatables on tv now :) i love this show... heheh. so exciting to watch last time. 1st episode today, hope can follow the whole series! cant rmmr what happened in the show alr, was sooo long ago that it was first shown.

thanks for all the concern, pple :)

i wonder if my day would have been any different had i gone to meet fi at the appointed time of 10 am this morn instead of succumbing to my laziness enhanced by the rain. not that my day's over yet, in fact i;ve more than half the day left.. but at this rate, i can see myself wasting time away and feelin crappy at the end of the day.

for some unknown strange reason, feeling a bit blue. that's why i've been trying to keep from being home alone in a way. so ironic that it's my free day yet.. hmm.. haiyah nvm.