in OB-HRM tutorial now.. feeling sleepy. all the 2 hour lessons seem to last forever. before lunch i'll be looking forward to lunch. now after lunch, what do i have to look forward to???

i just want to go home and sleep :/

ok, i also wldnt mind if i could see my lovely senior toddlers at The Cove either. they make my day :) and Mrs Zuzarte was very mice, she said i can pop by for a stress break anytime i want :)

it's gonna be a busy, busy semester.. already have an assignment due one day after my birthday. SAD!

oh btw, OB HRM stands for organisational behaviour human resource management. maybe it'll help me to understand fifi's job scope at GIC better haha.

NAPFA is coming and i am nowhere near FIT. how?!

so tired~~~

hahaha, i think maybe only 2 people read my blog on a regular basis.. then maybe once in a blue blue moon 1 or 2 others may pop by too. lol.

2 more weeks till the start of school!!! oh man. time really flies.. before i know it my last sem in poly will be over, and who knows what i'll be doing then? BIG question mark.

it may sound somewhat sadistic but i think some little kids (ard 3 years old) look quite cute when they're crying.. and they kinda give you the i-want-to-protect-you sort of feeling. haha.

i'm very thankful for good weather in the morn these past 2 days, and that i actually managed to start jogging again after MONTHS of inactivity.. then again, really gotta buck up.. NAPFA on 11 nov! *shrieks* am terribly unprepared. sigh.

am also very thankful for the opportunity to work at The Cove for a month. with this work experience, i can truly say this hol hasnt been wasted. all in all, a good hol :)

and oh, i picked up another hobby this hol too.. lol.. another EXPENSIVE hobby.. the one that i picked up last hol is.. banished to one side. cos well i wasnt really good at that too anyway. at least for this current interest, it's more.. doable. haha. did one for my bear's mom's bday present hehe.

wondering if i should buy a photo printer...

the way i spend $$$ is really scary. all i can say is Thank God i'm earning $$$ with this job.. i just bought an ECH textbook on impulse from the school bookshop! there goes 50 bucks. and last night i took cab to and fro bear's house. hahah.

meeting my cousins and cousin in law for dinner later... :)

Happy Children's Day

it's the last day of september...

didnt realise i havent been blogging for so long. since may! wow.. i think my time got absorbed by hk serials. found a much cheaper way of sustaining this previously expensive hobby.. i watch some shows online at tudou now. used to buy and buy vcds. thought i could establish my own little collection. then pple told me the vcds will spoil if u dun play them once in a while. sian -_- haha! i re-watched Detective Investigation Files 4 some weeks back... good stuff.

am incredibly FAT now. due to months of ill discipline and lack of exercise. all the accumulated FAT man... i am so not proud of being the same weight (or heavier) than bear lor... so GROSS can. why on earth is he so slim?!?!?! must fatten him up. heheheeeee .... :D

lots of things have happened in the past couple months.. at this point i guess most significant is my attachment at The Caterpillar's Cove (childcare centre on campus) last semester (love the children... ), then Mama Fang's Wedding... then my short trip with Rixin and her family. to Macau, Zhuhai and HK. finallly gpt to play in Ocean Park! heh... but so sad la, no bear by my side, sitting the Mine Train was reeeally scary. at least in KennyWood i could grab his hand tightly... lol. anyhow, was really great travelling with Rixin's family. would have been even more perfect if there had been more time, if things could have been at a more leisurely pace (ie more time to sleeep...), and if we could have played more bridge! hahahahaaa...

ok, gotta go. kids are waking up. better see how i can help.

i think the thing's that causing some distance me between my big daddy and me is that grudge-like thingy i'm holding against her, can't explain why i just... wanna ignore her. it's a contradictory feeling. all started innocently with a very typically her action/remark/behaviour that somehow was the start of my out-of-sortness.. which would have been alright i feel had she not just gone ahead and filled her cup with room temp water and heated it in the microwave oven when i had already said there WAS hot water in the vacuum flask and was prepared to help her with that sometimes temperamental thing, but. she proceeded as if i didn't exist.

anyway, my mum just announced a 'good news' a while ago - my uncle's giving us a treat at Long Beach restaurant this sat.. i dunno if it really is good news though for me. after all, after that sinfully yummy dinner there last thurs night... i lapsed into a sinfully-unhealthy snacking mode over the weekend which lingered on and resurrected itself on mon night despite my resolution to eat right.

really, gets me so tired and upset with myself. my life this past few weeks has revolved around arranging my time to gym as much as possible. like, everyday if possible. WOW u must be thinking, cant be i gym so much and no effect right. but yeah. i waste all my efforts each time gluttony kicks in and after a few weeks of continuous gyming.. i'm tired/sian. but what can i do? it's a very real issue to me that my meal portions are bigger (meaning greater appetite) than the average female's. so while having to gym furiously, each day i'll be trying to plan my meal, thinking - so how much should/can i eat today? what to eat, at what time so that i eat as little as possible (by my own standards) and have enough energy to last me thru the day...

Sorry for boring you with these ramblings on the same topic as usual. :X

last night had all the makings of a good night, a relaxing one, a nice memory reminiscent of times in the past..

had a sinfully yummy dinner with relatives at Long Beach at East Coast, indulged in seafood and exploded my calorie limit for probably 2-3 days, was so darn full! but oh, finally got my chilli crab and fried mantou craving settled after such a loooong time :D had black pepper crabs too, and ate a few prawns and enjoyed them! cos normally i'm not that into prawns. somehow the gravy they were cooked in was really good. different, special. then there was of course the chark's fin soup and sea bass and fried chicken and vege and carbs and the desert - yam paste!

one of the best parts was sitting next to my cousin in law Cheryl and talking to her throughout dinner... and also chatted a lil with Ivan, my cousin who's 21st birthday just passed! oops :X prob the first time i exchanged so many words with him. haha. hope all these cousinly relations will continue to deepen with each gathering :)

so ok initially one fantastic dinner was an o-kay thing, just need to make sure i dun overeat the next few days and exercise and alll....

went home and chatted on the phone for a few hours to a few friends. :) that was another best part. somehow in recent years i dont chat ont the phone with friends that much, though i rmmr doing so in like sec sch days? so it felt quite nice.

and after that cos i wasnt sleepy yet i decided to work on the newsletter since after all there was a dateline to meet. so did that till like 2 plus am?

should have gone to bed after that and i wouldnt be feeling guilty now.

ended up sleeping close to 4am watching Healing Hands 3 the HK serial and... no prizes for guessing what i was doing as i watched. rationalised to myself that it's ok, after trying to control for a week one slip up is ok!

it continued when i woke up today at 12 plus pm though.

feeling bloated now from all the junk.

i asked for it, didnt i?

need to start doing my assignments... but feeling lazy.... Help me Lord!

so gone is my bro, off in the skies... heading for perth, lucky duck he gets to see my uncle's house there! wonder when my turn will come... ~muses~

anyway, i just HAD to blog about this. those who've been in contact with me will know my current preoccupation with food. apart from my perpetual struggle with it (think jialing the glutton), i've also been asking all my gfs quite often, simply out of pure curiosity, how much or what they eat, be it breakfast/lunch etc. the 'results' of this informal survey also served to highlight to me the extent of my gluttony. and further confirmed what a HUGE appetite i have.

and i realised from my dinner conversation with my parents that i really prob got this from my MUM. => she told my dad and i about what she ate for breakfast this morn, and get this, she practically finished the WHOLE LOAF of gardenia banana walnut bread! only 2 slices left! and each slice is 125 calories. assuming she ate 8 slices, that means she ate 1000 calories for breakfast... hahahaa.. and guess what, i'm not surprised cos i know i can eat so much too, if i allow myself to that is... which i most certainly MUST NOT do.. at least not during this period of time :P

at canteen 2 on a wed evening waiting for dotdot to finish showering in the gym to go home together. my laptop says it's 6.39pm. so i'll get home at.. ard 8pm? wonder how much i'll eat for dinner tonight. lol. i shall sleep earlier today! i think 7 hours + is not enough for me... jialing the weird girl who needs to sleep A LOT to function properly and who perspires like a mad cow just standing outside church prayer room before cell group yest night talking to fang. fang who self professes to perspire a lot too. that means... I WIN. NOBODY else has as active sweat glands as me lor! i walked from aljunied mrt to church and met sally, wailing, jasmine at kopitiam, n they were like... wah, u went jogging ah? so yes. that's the extent of my hyperactive sweat glands.

weihan is done with his gyming session! only dot left showering upstairs in the gym hahaha :)

today was the first time a gym person approached me and told me my gym towel was too small and i have to use a bath size towel if i wanna continue gyming. thankfully i was alr done with my gyming session for the day hahahaa.

i think i have a very rigid mind. how to think of creative ideas for teaching children using interesting activities liddat? hmmmm... now in school, learning things like curriculum goals for the 6 domains and learning outcomes.. feel kinda stuck dunno how to think up good ones. well well, we'll see how things go!

less than a month till weisiong returns for good from his studies.. will i be able to lose the weight i've gained by then? ;) hahahaha

my bro left today with his .... for his 2 months grad trip... wish i could join them... miss those times when i got to tag along on my bro's trips :(

more to say, but next time ba! cos dot has arrived ;)